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Name: Bles
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Bay Area
Birthday: 8/16/1980
Gender: Female
Interests: arts and crafts, pottery, hair, cardigan sweaters, thrift stores, drving at night, cooking and baking
Expertise: repeating bio classes
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
5/18/2005
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| I don't know what had donned over me, but the once long, dry, damaged hair that everyone loved so much is gone. I just looked at myself at the mirror, pulled out a pair of scissors and started cutting. I watched my hair fall into the sink, trying to be careful not making a mess knowing that my mother would get angry. No thoughts ran in my head. I felt free and relieved. It felt like it was the best move I have made in a very long time. I can't even remember what the last was.
I looked at myself in the mirror this morning, feeling like a new person. A part of me wanted to come out.
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| Soooo...I PASSED NCLEX!!!
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| January 8, 2009, 8:00 am is the big day. The day that I have been waiting, hair-pulling, stressing, worried, nervous for.
Am I ready? Not sure.
I have been studying everyday. Making flashcards, writing notes, trying to remember lab values and side effects of Viagra, Fosamax, and almost every drug that exists, and the signs and symptoms of every disease or condition that is known.
You know that movie Momento? About that guy who loses his short term memory, so he constantly writes himself notes about things he does and people he meets. Yeah. That's me.
So far, 3 of my classmates have taken the NCLEX and all only answered the minimum 85 questions and out of that 3 only 1 has gotten a letter saying that she passed. Everyone says that only answering 85 is a good sign. But the NCLEX goes 3 ways. You answered 85 and passed indicating that you have reached the passing line, or you answered 85 but kept scoring below the passing line, OR answer over 85 and the computer will shut off anytime not knowing if you passed or not.
AND OH! The testing center is up in cubicles. Each person goes one cubicle. No scratch paper but a white erasable clipboard that they will provide. Right by the computer is a camera right in your face...ah...even more nerve wrecking!
So, in 7 days...
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| 2 more weeks away from graduation day. I feel happy, excited, nervous, and scared all at the same time. Happy and excited because I am one step closer to getting where I want to be and scared and nervous because I have this huge anxiety about the NCLEX-PN and about not finding a job.
I gave 6 of my tickets away to 2 of my classmates and all of my announcements. When I was asked if I was going to invite any of my friends, i just said, "eh." I guess I don't really have close friends anymore. I feel that I have lost them. I tell myself that it's ok, but deep down it hurts. I so badly want to move out of here and start new and meet new people and find myself. I know who I am, but I want to see what I'm made out of.
I know that graduating is the start of a new chapter. A whole new adventure and I'm so excited! | | |
| So i'm really planning on applying for this school in new mexico. i think i will have a really good chance of getting in. *fingers crossed* | | |
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